Addicted to meth
Hi my name is Melissa I'm 27yrs old and have been addicted to meth for almost 8yrs. I don't have a criminal record nor have I been arrested in my adult life. I held a job for almost 7yrs working at a gas station as a cashier until last November 2 days after Thanksgiving i was terminated for a no call no show.
I kept my addiction secret from my family and friends until exactly 1 week before my birthday in September of 2011 when i had to be rushed to the hospital because i was having a stroke. You would think after I had my stroke I would of woke up and found the help that I needed to get clean and sober but I didn't, in fact my addiction has only gotten worse.
I use up to $400 a week unless my week was stressful then id use up to $700-$800 a week. I am to scared to quit because I've depended on meth for so long just to get me through the day that i don't know how to handle my life if meth was takin away from me.
My health I'm pretty sure is really bad and the reason why i say 'pretty sure' is because i actually don't know. I haven't gone to the hospital to see how bad my health is for quite a few years but i know my teeth are really bad from years of smoking, my kidneys and spine hurt regularly, I'm unfortunately going blind in my left eye, and i have been needing knee surgery for the last 3-4yrs but keep putting it off for whatever reason.
I hope someone reads this and thinks twice before trying meth because you can get addicted after using just once. The high you get the very first time is very powerful and it will control your life the way it has controlled mine. I feel like a puppet on strings and meth is the one that controls your every move.... Please live your life drug free don't end up becoming someone like me who depends on gettin high just to make it through the day whose life ends up flashing before their eyes...