Admitting my alcohol abuse

by Elizabeth
(St. Louis, Missouri)

I started drinking innocently in college. It was everywhere, and the "in" thing to do. I noticed the buzz it gave me and added to my self esteem. -- Through the years my drinking escalated. I'd say I realized I had a problem in my late 20's, but just continued to drink.

I still have self esteem issues, and drink heavily--not every day. I can easily down 2 bottles of wine. I hate that I have to have it to feel better about myself, but the hang-over's and depression that are created from alcohol are horrible side effects. I envy people that are just social drinkers. They can enjoy 2 or 3 drinks then stop. I wished I enjoyed life without alcohol.

I have never gotten treatment, but one of my doctors who I see for depression thinks I drink to "self medicate." He's right.

Any advice is appreciated. -- I work full time, and I'm now 56 years old.