From romance to MISERY

by Becca
(u.s.)

My story is a tough one to tell. My name is Rebecca. I was a nobody growing up. I didn't have very many friends, didn't get to go to the cool parties, none of the popular guys liked me.

I finally made it through the 9th grade of my high school career when i met the man of my dreams. He was a beautiful person. Out going, great sense of humor, the most popular, he just had everything.

The most important thing was he noticed me.

We completely fell in love with each other. Nothing he could say or do would make feel any different about him.....until one day..
I can still remember it like it was yesterday. if you ever feel the feeling i felt you will never forget it.

It was a Saturday morning. Cold, rainy, something just did not seem right about that day. My boyfriend was on his way to get me, i was so excited to see him. He had broken plans the day before with me for an odd reason that i couldn't understand. He finally arrived that morning and the whole ride to his mothers house he would not make eye contact with me. Couldn't sit still. Showed no concern for my feelings. I finally got a good look into his eyes and i asked him why his pupils were so big? He said "how else am i suppose to stay awake?"

He had been up the nite before smoking Crystal Meth. His excuse was he was only suppose to sell enough to make his truck payment....It's still ongoing..i have been hit, punched, head-butted, thrown to the grown left for numerous days, called horrible names. I basically took care of our new born baby alone.

Crystal Meth took the only man away that i have ever loved. It took my life dreams away because i began using. I dropped out of college and helped ruin my family.

I'm not going to go to treatment because i know i can fight this sickness on my own. I know what i need to do to save my family. As bad as it hurts to walk away i am going to have to. And you will too.

Everyone has a rock bottom that they will hit. And waking up to someone who looks dead was mine. you can try everything people say to do. The person you are walking away from will think you have given up on them but i assure you you have not. You are merely helping them.

Being an addict is tough and horrible. But watching the only person you truly care about suffer from crystal meth and help them go down is even more horrible.

Take it from someone who has been there and can now see the truth about things and the real reason for livin and the opportunities that stand before me. Don't let anything stand in your way.

Walk away before the only person who cares about you has to experience the felling that they will never forget.

Loosing someone to Crystal Meth.

-Rebecca