Heroin & crack ruined me

by Michele
(Louisiana)

I've been a heroin addict for 15 years. It brought me so low. I became a prostitute, lived under a bridge, went to jail, and had a heart valve replaced caused by bacteria from shooting up. I just got sick of it.

I also shot up and smoked cocaine with the heroin. It was a dark, dark world I lived in. The prolonged cocaine use caused severe paranoia to the point where I no longer knew what reality was.

I finally just got sick of it. Last november I finished 9 months of a year long inpatient program. Due to lack of funding the place was closed and we were all discharged with no place to go.

Instead if using the coping skills I learned I quickly started using heroin again. Long story short life got worse and worse. I moved out of state and haven't used heroin since.

I have taken pills on numerous occasions and recently started smoking crack again. It sucks...I feel like a robot unable to control myself. It's crazy really...drugs create insane amounts or problems.

Without the heroin I've often suffered such severe depression I pray for death. Mix cocaine into that and it's triple the depression. I wish I never took drugs but since there's no point in dwelling on mistakes...I wish more that anything the obsession to use would be lifted. Don't do drugs...it might seem fun at first...but for many it leads to a life of disease..heart ache...destruction...death.