Loving an addict!!
by Addict Lover
(Stevenson, Alabama )
Loving an addict sometimes can be worse than being an addict. The mental damage alone is enough to have to seek counseling. This is my story and my opinion. Please do not take offense to this in any way. I am hoping my story helps someone else loving an addict through there situation.
My husband is addicted to any kind of pill you can get high off of. Yes, he has been to 3 rehabs, outpatient rehab, counseling, Psyc. wards,jail, any place designed to help addicts he has been. I couldn't tell you the thousands and thousands of dollars that was spent on him to recover and like clock work he uses.
I have watched him lay in a hospital bed with temporary brain damage from overdosing. His liver shutting down, kidney's shutting down, heart failure, lung failure. He is lucky to be alive and I know God has a purpose for him on this earth.
I have found him in parking lots overdosed barely breathing. He has at one point sold what we have worked so hard to have for a few pills. I have been put through so much to love this man. Sober, he is the best husband you could ever imagine. Those moments are few and far between now.
Dr's don't expect him to live another 6 months with him continuing down the path he is on. What do you do knowing you can't beat this disease. I was almost to the point I thought I should just join in. I knew that was the devil, I was to the point of leaving and never looking back.
Something was keeping me there. I have never used so I couldn't understand why all the risk he was taking for a few pills. It was heart breaking. I felt like it was me, I wasn't a good wife. I thought my love was strong enough to save him and when reality hit and I found out it wasn't. I was devastated.
I woke up every morning to a man I did not know. The pills have taken him and I was sleeping with a stranger every night. Well, there were most nights I would have to go get him at 3:00 am.
Loving an addict is not a life to live. I can't say your situation will get better, or worse. I don't know. I think most of you loving an addict can see your situation before it worsens.
Maybe this is enough for the addict to see, yes it hurts us to. We are the one picking up the pieces sober. I have lost friends and family because of this. I have about lost employment because of his addiction. I suffer the consequences from his actions. It is not fair.
If you believe in God turn it over to him. If in His will He will make the situation better. Have faith, and it will work out accordingly.