I've been contemplating sharing this, but if I can do it, anyone can trust me!!
God has the strangest ways of helping you. We've had it all, and then we've also been without a place to sleep. These past few months there were so many times I just wanted to quit life, but I knew something eventually would have to change and get better.
I never understood why He gave me a life so hard, but He knew I could handle it. You have two options when the struggle comes, you can either sit there in that struggle and let it drain you, or you can over come it and let it make you stronger. I decided to just sit in that struggle and filth for years.
That struggle can cause you to do stuff you never thought you would do. I started smoking meth, popping pills, really anything I could get. It covered up the struggle temporarily but once your sober again the struggles are back. It's an ongoing cycle, and you either find you way out or die in it.
I made the choice to find my way out. I was smoking meth at age 14 up till I was 18, I made the choice to quit all on my own. Of course with the support of family, but I didn't go to treatment or therapy. I realized you can't live life like that, blaming God for your struggle.
I starting praying about the struggle instead of blaming it on every one else. And at first it just kept getting worse. I lost all my friends, my mom lost her job, we had no vehicle anymore, our lights got cut off, and we got evicted.
For the first time, I had to find some where away from my mom to live for 3 months. But God had a plan the whole time. I lost all my friends because they were no good for me, they wanted me to sit in the struggle with them because they couldn't find their own way out and they didn't want to be alone. They held me back from progressing.
We lost the car so I would quit finding my way to the struggle, I was stuck at home where my friends never came. We lost the house, so we could move away from all the negative things. And now we have a house, a vehicle, jobs, and we're slowly starting to succeed.
Don't question God's way, just follow along and when you get where you're going you will finally realize how much changing you've actually done. All you have to do is put all faith in Him, and start praying!