Methamphetamine and how it impacted my life.
( Layton, Utah)
On new years eve. Of 2014 I tried meth for the first time in my life, little did I know what tragic events would follow in the year and a half later.
It all be gain when my husband and I moved to Ogden Utah. I never realized how naive I was to everything going on right in front of me. If given the chance I would take it all back in a heart beat.
At first I liked it. I liked it because of how easily I could loose weight not even trying. Growing up I was very self conscious about myself and loosing weight was a big struggle for me. But the amount of weight lost was far more then I had bargained for.
When I was healthy I weighed a constant 140lbs which isn't fat but society likes skinny. I got so deep into it I got all the way down to 80 lbs. I looked emaciated and I didn't even realize it till it was to late.
People on meth thrive off of drama and paranoia. It still blows my mind how paranoid people would get from the meth. In about June of 2014 I fell and smacked my head on the cement and went into a seizure. I had never had a seizure nor had anyone in my family.
I woke up in the e.r. and I couldn't remember a thing. I was asked my last name, what year it was, and I couldn't remember either question. That was probably the scariest thing I have personally had to experience I was scared I didn't know my own last name.
Since then I have had a few seizures still waking up and not being able to remember anything. One of my most recent seizures I went blue and went into cardiac arrest. It's very scary and unexpected.
In July my husband and I got kicked out from not being able to pay rent. We started bouncing from hotel to hotel from Ogden to Layton all over.
One day we had ordered a pizza and were waiting for the guy to come so our hotel door was open. About ten minutes after opening the door a man walked in our room and pointed a gun at my husband. He shot him once right above his left knee completely shattering his femur. Then shot him again, in his right leg.
I froze these kinds of things don't happen in real life. This is something that happens in movies not to real people. Then it hit me and I realized my husband just got shot and I was just sitting there. I got up and started freaking out.
I got on the phone and called 911. I closed and locked the door and was shaking so bad I could hardly hold the phone. The police came and ambulance took him away. He ended up needing a rod put in to replace his femur and had to learn to walk all over again. Now he is in jail because of stupid decisions influenced by methamphetamine.
It has had a huge impact on my life and today I'm clean and clear headed, making much wiser choices. All I can say is don't do it, it's not worth it!