My boyfriend is an addict and he is currently in jail...
So, my boyfriend and I have been best friends for 10 years. We have been on and off for the past 6 years. He has had a problem with heroin for the past almost three years.
He has been in and out of jail for months at a time. Now he is facing years in jail for violating his probation by over dosing and not going to probation.
I feel better knowing he is safe. But I miss him everyday and now I am working on moving out of the area that we are currently in so we can have a new start when he gets out. We will be almost 30 by that time comes. But it will be enough time to start a family and do all the things that we said that we were going to do.
I have never loved anyone as much as I love him. He is my one and only, but it hurts loving an addict. Because when they are caught up in the drug they don't love themselves never mind anyone else. When he gets clean everything comes flooding back to him. Because the heroin gives him a tunnel vision sort of effect and that is all he can see.
But now he wants to be clean, and wants to start by leaving the area and starting new. And as if it's not bad enough, my boyfriend's brother is an addict as well. He is worse than my boyfriend and my boyfriend just told me that he is going to cut him out of his life if he doesn't get clean.
He is doing very well and I am proud of him. But that fear is there and I think it always will be in the back of my mind of him relapsing. But I hope that things will be good for us. I have faith and love and patience. Hopefully everything works out.