Please i need advise! Please tell me what you think!
I was in love with an addict few years ago. With him i felt alive and full of energy. If there was something i had to do (get on with my studies, cook, clean) I'd do it with a lot of energy because he was just so handsome!
He was my first love and my first everything else. With time I could see a personality disorder but i was ready to stick to it because i believe all men have faults and he was the only one so far for whom i was ready to fight.
After we started quarreling heavily i could see he had a reality distortions, like he couldn't judge properly things. To give you an example, i could cook great but if he came home and saw i didn't clean under the table he would get mad and start believing i wasn't wedding material or a good girl.
He liked me a lot and had a lot of passion towards me but if his friends would tell him that they did not like me, he would start thinking i was wrong cos his friends must be right. They persuaded him to leave me and i cried all my tears. This was just the beginning!!
He came back and forth so many times. Each time he left, i believed with all my self he would never come back due to all abusive talk and then when he would come back crying, with all the best intentions saying i was the girl to marry. I let him do this. He was the only one for me. But then something would always happen. He couldn't cope with my faults although they are regular ones. When he left me the last time another girl came. She did everything possible to get him , she took 6 months to win him over and his friends were all pushing him to get cos she liked to drink and get drunk whereas i didn't...