This is the hardest for me to write, I'm abusing Vicodin.
This is the hardest thing I have had to write. I have been abusing prescription painkillers, Vicodin, for 5ish years. I have tried and tried to quit on my own but can't seem to kick the habit. I go 3 or 4 days but always seem to get right back in the game.
The viscous cycle of buying 40 pills on Monday and running out by Thursday and looking to score again on Friday, well this repeated cycle has eaten through all of my money and all of my hopes. I can think of nothing other than getting high first, then going about my business afterward.
My day begins with at least 3 pills when i wake up and 2 more on the way to work and downhill from there. I don't know where to turn for help. I can't afford to do a rehab stint (I'm already broke and missing work will just add to that drama). I can't tell my family, my dad is going through cancer treatment he doesn't need to deal with my bull right now.
What do i do? What's the answer?
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