What is Next?
I started using alcohol, a little over ten years ago while I was a junior in high school. I grew up in a decent small neighborly town in Oklahoma, where everybody is connected to each other one way or another.
Before that first drink, I would go to parties and just refuse the chance to drink. Then one night at a small party I felt peer pressure from myself to drink because of a girl, thinking that it would impress her. I acted a bit forward and felt the drunkenness of alcohol, I didn't impress her the only thing that happened to me was I got drunk.
Within a month I was drinking heavily and smoking pot and acting not like my natural self. Within a year I was drinking every weekend getting blacked out falling down drunk, just accumulating guilt. That is when I first felt the cycle or insanity of repeated regret after every drinking outing...