Why do I continue to use knowing the harsh consequences??
I am 42 years old. I have been using for over 25 years, from weed to now Dilaudid. I am currently on a GPS monitor with a five year prison sentence hanging over me.
I have to check in every month to my P.O. and take a U.A. I have a script for Dilaudid and Oxycodone but I still use meth knowing I'm going to get U.A. and could be put back in prison for the rest of my five year sentence, I have three years left.
What is it that as an addict I don't think about or worry about prison and the chance of going back that I continue to use...? Addiction is a evil demon for me....!!