My husband has had an addiction to one drug or another all of my married life, 24 years together. For many years it was marijuana, then gambling, now cocaine. He joined N/A last November and had two dips in that month.
From December until last Sunday he was doing so well. He was going to meetings twice a week, putting on weight, we done more talking than we had in years. He has nearly destroyed me financially.
I am still trying to support him but last Sunday he went to pick our 12 year old daughter up from her nans, he brought her in to our house and walked out. Ten minutes later I got a text saying "I have used, I am not coming home".
I just felt that gut wrenching feeling as I have felt so many times before. Our daughter thinks he has gone to work away for the week, I try to protect her in all of this. I know he loves us both.
He has just rang and asked if he can come home, I am so confused, I said he can come and have his tea with us and see how we go.
I do not know what way to turn. He hasn't been back to a meeting this week. He has gone back to work.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8