My name is McKayla , I'm 19 years old. I've been an active user since I was about 13. I've been in and out of about 6 different in and outpatient rehabs.
Currently I have about 4 days sober I've been regularly attending meetings but it doesn't seem to get easier in my head. It's all I think about. I want to get high so bad but I know that I can't and that it's not what's best for me.
My latest addiction was to Cocaine, the white devil . Which took a really horrible toll on me. I have a HUGE hole in my nose from it and get constant nosebleeds. I know using is not what I should be doing but I need to get rid of all the demons I have inside of me. Lately they've been haunting me.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8