I wish I knew that life was actually possible after using meth. I wanted to stop every minute of everyday for years, but the withdrawals were so intense… I couldn’t make it past one day.
It wasn’t until I got sent to prison for a year, (drug related crimes.. DUI’s, possession…etc.) that I got clean.
It was by far the most horrible, painful, and terrifying experience for over 4 months. That is how long I “came down” for. I think the effects of meth, (physically and mentally) is different for everyone.
I was one of the few who looking at me, you would never know I smoked meth for 7 years. My teeth aren’t cracked, decayed, and falling out, my skin hasn’t been picked at and doesn’t have an unhealthy appearance… I even still look quite a bit younger than I am.
This, I thought made me one of the “Lucky Ones.” I now think the opposite, I have always been overly concerned about my appearance, (due to low self-esteem) and if it would have started to turn me into looking like what I was… an addict then maybe I would have stopped.
I think I would have found a way. I came out of prison and was clean 3 years. Started using meth again and got busted within a month in the most unusual way, I wasn’t driving around high, etc. I know there’s life after meth, I lived it for 3 years.
It is like going outside in the warm sun after being in a cold dungeon for what seems like forever. Now I have been reading about how to stop and lessen the withdrawals from meth… and massage therapy and a combo of amino acids can do wonders.
I will be trying it and already spent my “drug money,” on amino acid supplements.
I wanna feel the warm sun again.