I am 24 years old and a girlfriend of 6 years to a heroin addict. I've come to my breaking point, feeling lost and unsure of what to do. I don't know if there's anymore fight left in me anymore.
This all started when he got stabbed about 4 years ago, and became addicted to his meds and after he couldn't get those he turn to heroin. Well at least that's what I like to believe. Because I'm sure that the first two years of our relationship we're fine. I didn't realize he was an addict till I was pregnant with my daughter about about 3.5 years ago, and I walked in on him in the hospital restroom to him shooting up.
It was devastating at the time I didn't understand the drug I thought it was easy to quit I gave him options to quit or I'd break up with him. I was cold & mean! But also it was draining me his physical appearance and attitude would change in seconds after getting high so it was hard to keep away from me after my daughter was born it took me about two months to realize this drug had a hold of him.
I wasn't paying my newborn the attention she needed because I was too busy behind him babysitting him when it just got out of control & I decided to quit. We broke up went to jail. And as soon as he realized that I wasn't going back to him he engaged into another relationship.
I guess he was missing the affection of a girl & it was easier for him to do so since the girl knew nothing also easier because we were in different states. So when my daughter was about 1 we moved to the same state he was in but that didn't change a thing not he's addiction nor our relationship. He then went back to jail & when he got out we tried working things out. I was hoping jail had helped him we lived together again.
Then after a couple of months he started using again. Kicking him out because I refused to make heroin a part of my daughters life he then became homeless was using like never before.
NOTE: I haven't stop loving him not even for a second. But I just couldn't deal with it. A day before he was caught and went to jail again I confessed that I was still in love with him that I loved him and that I wanted to help him, by now I understood that his addiction was not a joke and he needed professional structure and help.
This time around I was there for him to the fullest I love him, I'll always love him. I supported him by now my daughter is already two years old. He finally gets out on drug court. That was life changing gave me some hope.
This was last year in September while in drug court there was a few relapse but nothing too serious that I felt the need to walk away because the program was there to help him and look out for him as much as he hated it. I got pregnant again thinking to myself that things would be so much more different this time around.
And now I'm here pregnant and he's quit drug court and using again. Completely devastated & destroyed. Is there help? Can I help him I'm lost and feel alone. I hate this drug it's destroyed my life. Someone please help me