I just found out two days ago that my boyfriend of 6 years has a serious heroin addiction. He only told me because I was on my way to reporting money was stolen from my checking account to the cops while on the phone with him and he said, "wait---I took it. I was going to put it back. I have a heroin problem. Please don't press charges." Suddenly my whole life crumbled.
I love this boy more than anything. My father died when I was 16 and he is the only way I survived. I also battled bulimia and he was so patient and loving and helped me through it.
We went to elementary school together, grew up in the same neighborhood, and were best friends since junior high. People always told us we had a fairy tale relationship.
I broke up with him out of devastation and fear and now he is texting me saying he will die without me and to think of it as saving a life, and threatening to kill himself if we can't eventually be together.
I don't know what to do. I can't even get out of bed. I love him so much and feel like I am abandoning him and leaving him to die when he was there for me. I don't know that I want to live without him either....I just don't know.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8