Hi, I suffered with addiction for 8 yrs from ages 12 to 20. I stayed clean for 11 years with help from a great supporting group at the congregation i went to and of course my higher power whom the Bible calls Jehovah God.
In the past few months I have found myself reflecting on past childhood trauma and I am withdrawing back into my addictive behaviors (finding drugs anyway I can). I'm to ashamed to ask for help from my friends and I feel as if I have let everyone down. I am going to a psychiatrist, they don't seem to do much more than offer me more drugs but it seems to be the best way not to lose face.
How did this happen after 11 yrs of being free from this junk and how will I ever get my life back? The only time I'm not in despair is while I'm high on some prescription drug?
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8