The battle of Heroin

by Jessica
(St. Louis)

My name is Jess, I'm 36yrs old, and I've been battling heroin for 10yrs, luckily... I'm on my 3rd year clean. People ask me how I do it? Committement.

I make that decision everyday to not get high. The struggle is real and although the thoughts are far away, they do pop up every once in awhile. I've learned how to have control over my addiction, I know what sets me off and as I say 'I don't wake the beast' it stays asleep.

I've been thru so much pain, suffering, jails, rehabs, prison, felonies, hurt, loss and devastation to last me a lifetime. I choose life... am 100 percent healed? Absolutely not, but I manage to keeps my life under control now.

The love I have from my children, family and a few select friends is never worth loosing again. And I like my freedom : ) I'm never done fighting this battle no matter how long I'm clean.

There's always that little voice waiting for me to say 'okay, let's do it' ...but I push it away. My addiction doesn't have a chance to swallow me alive again. There is hope to pull out of this alive, its has to be within yourself.

It's all up to the person. Anyways, that's a really long story...made short. There's hope, I promise : )

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The battle of Heroin...
by: Jerry

Jessica,thank you for sharing your story with us. Reading your story gives me hope. I don't know if you have read the story's I've shared. I have been using since the age of ten,everything from huffing to heroin, weed, speed, coke, crack, uppers, downers, pretty much everything from A to Z.

I've been to rehab and to NA meetings and they say that addiction only brings you to jails, institutions, and death. I've have been thru all three and by the grace of my higher power I have made it thru all three without any permanent damage.

I feel very fortunate that I'm still alive and that I'm not doing a life sentence in prison. Again, I thank you for sharing and congratulations for your accomplishments. I myself am in the process to get myself clean. I'm changing the people, places, and things I do as a start. I'm 42 years old and of course not getting any younger. I have contributed way to much of my life to addiction and I'm taking my life back!!!

Recovering,
Jerry

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