My name is Jess, I'm 36yrs old, and I've been battling heroin for 10yrs, luckily... I'm on my 3rd year clean. People ask me how I do it? Committement.
I make that decision everyday to not get high. The struggle is real and although the thoughts are far away, they do pop up every once in awhile. I've learned how to have control over my addiction, I know what sets me off and as I say 'I don't wake the beast' it stays asleep.
I've been thru so much pain, suffering, jails, rehabs, prison, felonies, hurt, loss and devastation to last me a lifetime. I choose life... am 100 percent healed? Absolutely not, but I manage to keeps my life under control now.
The love I have from my children, family and a few select friends is never worth loosing again. And I like my freedom : ) I'm never done fighting this battle no matter how long I'm clean.
There's always that little voice waiting for me to say 'okay, let's do it' ...but I push it away. My addiction doesn't have a chance to swallow me alive again. There is hope to pull out of this alive, its has to be within yourself.
It's all up to the person. Anyways, that's a really long story...made short. There's hope, I promise : )
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8