I been with the father to my children for going on six years. When we began to go out I never knew he did drugs. Once we started getting serious I moved in with him.
I got pregnant with my first child and when I was a couple of months along, we went out to enjoy the evening. when we got back home I saw him breaking up something in our kitchen. I didn't pay attention at first then when I went back I saw he had coke in the table lined up. I broke down in front of him, I ran to the restroom locked myself in, he tired to open and he began to beg to let him in but I didn't let him in. I spent the night in the restroom crying. The very next day he promised he wasn't going to snort coke anymore. He kept that promise til this day.
We were about to have our second child when I see that he was working hard and he actually had a good job then everything went down hill a old co-worker called him to go work with him. I started to notice his mood changes, how he slept in a lot, how he wanted to go out every single night. I thought it was a phase he was going through then things got worse!
I started getting abuse when we would get into arguments he would get really pissed and hit me. I had my second child and still everything was the same. I knew right there and then I should have left my bags were packed but I couldn't leave the house. Just last year he told me he has a addiction to meth that broke my heart into pieces.
Since he told me he has a meth addiction I been trying to help him, I'm recently pregnant with our third child and he still craves the addiction but now he doesn't want accept that he is a meth user. I try so hard to keep him away from his friends who are currently drug users but he gets mad when I try that I get scared because I don't want to be abused anymore, I have my kids to worry about.
He goes out every night for three days then he sleeps for three days straight and I don't want to stress about it anymore. I'm scared to lose the baby this time over the stress I have to deal with. When he leaves our kids cry for him and it breaks my heart and I have to live with this pain. I want the father to my children to get the help he needs because he has a 4 year old, 2 year old, and a baby on the way that need him more then his friends need him.
My kids don't need to suffer or try to get their father attention. This drug is really tearing my family apart. WHAT SHOULD I DO FOR THE SAKE OF MY CHILDREN AND MY HEALTH?
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8