by katherine wilson
(myrtle beach, sc)
My names Katherine, and I’m 17 years old. Not many people know my story, not even my parents…
It becomes harder and harder to tell each time because i realize the danger i put myself in. My addiction began when I ran away at the age of 15. My mother and I were having problems, she always yelled, and we always fought… everyday. It became unbearable.
My father has been absent pretty much all my life, and when he came back in it, point blank, he was an ass. My emotions got the best of me and I didn’t like being upset and crying all the time. Life was just too difficult. I wanted to die. that was my only option, so I thought.
I was scared, lost, and confused. Sitting in my room, thoughts went through my head, and made living harder and harder everyday.
I began looking for any pills I could find. A few months before I got a UTI and was prescribed Hydrocodone and Vicodin… I began to take 20-30 different pills a night.
I’d look for anything that had “PM” in it because I thought it would make me sleep, an never wake up… I would take the pills, and then fill the bathtub up with water, an hope I’d fall asleep an drown… and die.
Thank the lord this never happened, but I did become very very sick. I am also having long term effects from the pills. I now have stomach problems, sometimes the pain is unbearable.
I became very depressed and was sad 110% of the time. I started going to counseling for my depression and was prescribed Zoloft. It helped a lot.
I was fine for a while, then I started abusing my ibuprofen. I am recently clean, and haven’t abused pills and gotten addicted to them. I do know however, that it would be extremely easy for me to become an addict again, I just hope I never go that way.
It is important to have love and support from friends an family to overcome pill abuse an addiction. I know many people who have stories similar to mine, and I know first hand addiction is very scary, and makes you lonely.
My name is Katherine, and I am a former addict or pill abuser. I have overcome my addiction.(: & proud of it.