by Jerry
(Tulsa, OK)

Hello, my name is Jerry. It's been a while since I last shared, but some of you have... I'm 44 years old with teenagers and young men. My oldest is 27 and youngest is the only girl is 16.

That being said, I sit here a reflect on my life. The only thing that I can say is, WTF.. happened to my life? Where did the YEARS go? Seems like yesterday I was holding my new born baby girl!!! I was on top of the WORLD...

I've been an addict for over 25-30 years. I was in my early 30s working my ass off to make sure my family is taking care of.. Loved every minute of it. I was a functional addict for years no problems.

Then in 2008-2009 when the economy crashed I brought home $35,000 in 2008, switched jobs in 2009 making better money I messed up my back and now 8-9 years later I'm a opiate addict/junkie. I never one time did I ever say I wanted to be an opiate addict. I haven't ever seen or heard about oxycodone, hydromorphone, oxymorphone. Never got into the pills until then, and only after someone showed me how to shoot them,..... Don't really remember to much after that.

I've gone to rehabs prison county jail and detoxed and felt just fine didn't touch anything when I was locked up. It didn't bother me till I was free to run and do what I want do... I have kicked the physical withdraws many times.

The psychological side of addiction kicks my ass Everytime!!! There may be hope... I saw online the FDA is trying stop sales and manufacturer of oxymorphone... But, I'm sure something else will take it's place... Stay strong keep y'all's heads up and take ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!!

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We are each created uniquely and we experience addiction and recovery uniquely.
by: Debbie Wicker

Dear Jerry,

It's good to hear from you again. It sounds like it's a very frustrating time for you. As you have described previously, you've had an awful time with addiction throughout your life.

We're each created completely uniquely, and the way we experience and recover from addiction is also unique. No one can give you a quick-fix for your addiction, but getting support from others can help.

I'd like to invite you to join our new online support group, which begins on October 7 at 9:00 am CDT. Being in a community with others who can listen and hear what you're feeling and experiencing can begin to help you decide where you are now and where you'd like to go in the future. Here is a link to register:
Addiction Support Group

You need to register with Learn-it-Live to attend but it easy, and we encourage you to join us.

You're certainly worth more than WTF and we look forward to meeting you on the seventh.


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