Hello, my name is Jerry. It's been a while since I last shared, but some of you have... I'm 44 years old with teenagers and young men. My oldest is 27 and youngest is the only girl is 16.
That being said, I sit here a reflect on my life. The only thing that I can say is, WTF.. happened to my life? Where did the YEARS go? Seems like yesterday I was holding my new born baby girl!!! I was on top of the WORLD...
I've been an addict for over 25-30 years. I was in my early 30s working my ass off to make sure my family is taking care of.. Loved every minute of it. I was a functional addict for years no problems.
Then in 2008-2009 when the economy crashed I brought home $35,000 in 2008, switched jobs in 2009 making better money I messed up my back and now 8-9 years later I'm a opiate addict/junkie. I never one time did I ever say I wanted to be an opiate addict. I haven't ever seen or heard about oxycodone, hydromorphone, oxymorphone. Never got into the pills until then, and only after someone showed me how to shoot them,..... Don't really remember to much after that.
I've gone to rehabs prison county jail and detoxed and felt just fine didn't touch anything when I was locked up. It didn't bother me till I was free to run and do what I want do... I have kicked the physical withdraws many times.
The psychological side of addiction kicks my ass Everytime!!! There may be hope... I saw online the FDA is trying stop sales and manufacturer of oxymorphone... But, I'm sure something else will take it's place... Stay strong keep y'all's heads up and take ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!!
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8