What am I doing with my life?

by Ansila

I married the guy I loved for almost 8 years. He has cheated on me many times, and he abused me physically... hit me so many times, even my in-laws torture me mentally. I was in a total depression, became a mentally sick person.

I used to take anti-depression pills and sleep all day, my life was finished. Meanwhile, one of my husband's cousins helped me a lot to recover. We were so close like best friend, he made me a normal person like I was before. Between all this I don't know how and when I have fallen for him, even he loves me like mad.

Again I'm getting depressed because I don't know how we will make it and take this relationship to another level. I was again tense and depressed so I started to take Yaba.

Now it has taken over my life,I I don't know what to do, I'm taking 10-13 pills a day, help me out how can I stop doing this crazy life? Already my life is full of chaos and yaba is making it worst. I will die this way I guess.

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Yaba does take over your life and will likely kill you if you don't stop using it.
by: Debbie Wicker

Dear Ansila,

From the little you have told me you have not made very good choices in your life, but the worse choice you've made to to start taking Yaba.

Often in our lives we have things we don't like and are unwilling to face, so we decide to self-medicate the emotional pain away. You choose Yaba to self-medicate with. Yaba/Methamphetamine is a dangerous and VERY harmful choice.

You need to start gong to AA meetings in your area and learn the 12 steps to recovery. Your life is TOTALLY unmanageable but helping you to change your life, that's what the 12 step program will do for you.

Here are the 12 steps:

Step One: We admitted that we were powerless over Yaba -- that our lives had become unmanageable.

Step Two: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

Step Three: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God, as we understand Him.

Step Four: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

Step Five: Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

Step Six: Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

Step Seven: Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

Step Eight: Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.

Step Nine: Made direct amends to such people whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

Step Ten: Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.

Step Eleven: Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.

Step Twelve: Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to addicts and to practice these principles in our affairs.

These are the steps you need to work to end your addiction and to get your life back.

Good Luck,


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