I am having a hard time with my girlfriend and her recovering from heroin addiction, will it ever end?
She has been taking Suboxone for the last 7 weeks, and has relapsed twice, its been an ongoing problem for about 2 years now, we have lived with each other for almost that same amount of time.
I’ve known her for 10 years, and she was not shy about telling me she was just getting out of a rehab facility that she was in for 6 months, and things where fine, but many dollars later and many fights and headaches and stressful situations, she still seems like she just can’t get over heroin. She does not work and can’t hold a job without her depression kicking in and then the mood swings because she thinks about getting high, she seems like she is fighting with herself, but I have come to not trust her.
It seems that everyday is a struggle with what her attitude and problem is going to be and it all resolves around heroin, she is currently seeing a doctor and has gotten welfare, and started getting council on her addiction and medication (suboxone) but still everyday, its what can I do to get high?
It’s either drinking, smoking weed, or thinking about heroin, she has spent so much energy and wasted so much time and money on this drug, will it ever friggin end?
I have told her that I’m here for her and she has my full support, I take her to the doctor and to get her medicine. I sometimes have to pay for it out of my pocket, I pay all the bills and I think I have gone above and beyond my duties to help, and I have asked her.
I know that in order for her to get sober she has to be the one that wants to get sober, all I can do is support her in her sobriety, but the depression, and sleeping all day and not even leaving the house for 4 to 5 days at a time, and not showering and sometimes not even leaving our bedroom except to go to the bathroom or get something to drink or just to drive me crazy.
She spends time with me which ends up being a fight because we are on edge, she’s thinking about getting high and I know she is, but the tension or to even talk about it causes us to fight.
Now she has said that she really wants to get off of heroin, and is trying, and has come a long way, but it’s just becoming really to much, and she is a beautiful 28 year old girl who hasn’t had to stoop to the lows of obtaining the drug, but whenever she has money it seems like she is looking to get heroin.
My instinct says to get rid of her, but i know she is a good person and the only thing that i don’t like about her is the drugs and how it manipulates her and our lives together.
What to do?