Hi, I am a 36 year old stay at home mom of 3 wonderful little boys. My husband and I have been married for 10 years now. He is 56 with 2 older children from a previous marriage.

I believe my husband has kept a lot of information from me from his previous life that I wish I could find out because it might help me not feel so crazy. I believe that my husband has an addiction problem to pills.

When we first married I think I was wearing blinders. I was 25 and in heaven. He lived in CT before we got married. He moved to my state to be with me.

Well, soon after he moved here we had his first ER visit. He woke up saying that his back hurt so bad that he has to go to the ER. Concerned, I took him. This was the start of a very long road.

After that he would run to the ER for just about any little pain. He said his leg hurt so bad or he went for an infected tooth. Of course with each visit they gave him pain meds but never really found anything wrong. He stared have neck pain and went to his primary DR.

This was about 5 years ago. they gave him prednisone. He took all of that but when the dr wouldn’t prescribe them anymore he secretly ordered them from an online website from Mexico. He took several bottles of that.

I was concerned and looked up all the side effects and he had 90% of them. I told him to quit or get out. He quit. Since then he has received muscle relaxers and pain meds. He is always on something.

Last summer I noticed that my Vicodin that was prescribed for migraines were almost gone. I was given 60 and had taken only about 5 within a 6 month period or so. I asked him if he took them and he denied it at first but then said I guess I did but I’m in pain.

It seems like within the past 2 -3 months things have gotten worse. I know I am to blame for this recent bout of drug abuse. I had an affair and he found out. He freaked out and was uncontrollable.

He went to his dr who prescribed him zanax to calm his nerves. We agreed to work on things. I have kept my end but it hasnt helped the drug abuse. He was on 1 mg of zanax for over 2 months. just recently he freaked out because he was low. Left work early to see his dr and the dr said that he can’t keep depending on this drug. Told him he has to talk to someone. He gave him a 5 day supply of .5mg and told him he has to deal with his issues.

Well, he was doubling up the .5 and was shaking and crying and freaking out. He went to a psychiatrist yesterday who prescribed him 1 mg again. He gave him 56 pills with 2 refills. Last night after coming home from a dinner with my friend he was pretty much passed out on his chair. He seemed way to out of it so I counted his pills. He had that prescription filled at about 1pm . I got home at 8pm. He had taken 4 in the 7 hours.

I confronted him and he says he doesn’t remember. I am so concerned about his health. He was drinking heavily when he took them but I dumped his vodka down the drain the other night. I want to call his Dr but not sure if I should. He says he is fine and I am just crazy.