You love it!! You live it!! In the end.....you HATE it!!
For two years I watched my roommate do Oxy's. I prided myself that I would'nt touch it.
Suffering for days from back aches I did one oxy 20. I found love and she didn't bitch back. For the next ten years I spent 3 to 4 thousand a month and had a good paying job.
One day my friend of years asked for help...I was out but he didn't believe me....so the bastard called my employer and told them I was using. My employer made me go to rehab which helped....but I really didn't want to stop.
Six months of clean time I was ready to get back on Lucy's back. This time besides making 90 grand a year...I had a new Transformer Edition Camaro...and inherited a 140 grand. On top of that...I met a hot chick 14 years younger who loved the pills too.
Before you know it we were both doing thirty thirties a day. We moved in together and within two months I lost my job. Why? In a house getting pills...took one minute...come out and some jerk stole my company van. In the next three months we spent all of my inheritance.
One day I went to get pills. He only had two....but he had some H. Being I loved my woman I did the H and gave her the pills. I loved it and didn't go to bed. My g friend saw how it effected me so she did the next day. We both been doing the next three years.
During these years I became a thief who couldn't hold a job. Countless police tickets with warrants up the ass. I hit rock bottom 20 times and realized I couldn't stop on my own. Also fact my old ex using buddy used me for roofing work...long days and if he did pay me...only 20 or 40 bucks a day. My dumbass still worked for this asshole cuz I needed the dope to not be sick. ROCK BOTTOM!!!
Screw you lucifer and may God's people learn from me! Went to rehab and now clean. Got rid of friend..girlfriend...and anyone associated with it. Now have good job already, paid police tickets, got driver's license back, child support back on track, and started to repair relationships of the loved ones I hurt. All in four weeks. I'm never going back to that life and God Bless Rehab.
Junkie no more....and I truly miss my Camaro....but I will get another! Also most importantly....I LOVE LIFE AGAIN with all my good morals back. Take that jab Lucifer!!! Also God Bless my mother for sticking with me.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8