STOP TALKING ABOUT USING!!!!
by SYNETHIA L
(LAKEWOOD,WASHINGTON,USA)
I USED TO TALK ABOUT MY ADDICTION ALL THE TIME, ABOUT HOW I GOT IT, AND HOW I USED IT. SEE MY ADDICTION WAS SO STRONG IN MY HEAD, EVERY TIME I WENT TO SLEEP I WOULD DREAM ABOUT USING. I WOULD WAKE UP FROM THE DREAM AND FEEL LIKE I JUST TOOK A HIT AND I FELT HIGH, IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AFTER THAT.
MY MIND WOULDN’T LET ME SLEEP BECAUSE I CRAVED MORE, I GOT UP AND WENT LOOKING FOR IT. SEARCHING AROUND AT ALL HOURS OF THE NIGHT TRYING TO FIND THAT HIT, NOT RESTING UNTIL I GOT THAT HIGH. ONE CLOCK TWO CLOCK DIDN’T CARED WHAT TIME IT WAS AS LONG I GOT THAT HIT, STOMACH HURTING,SWEATING AND MY HEART POUNDING SEARCHING AND LOOKING FOR COCAINE.
BEGGING GOD TO HELP ME FIND WHAT I WAS LOOKING FOR, SANITY THAT ALL IT WAS, SEARCHING FOR THE DOPE MAN KNOCKING ON HIS DOOR LOOKING THROUGH HIS WINDOW. NOT CARING IF HE SHOT ME, WATCHING OUT FOR THE POLICE SO I DO NOT GET CAUGHT.
LEAVING THE KIDS ALONE WHY I PREY THE NIGHT LIKE A ANIMAL, TAKING THINGS OUT MY HOUSE TRYING TO SELL FOR MONEY OR DRUGS.
LYING TO MY JOB WHY I CAN’T COME IN TODAY, TELLING MY LOVED ONES I HAVE THE FLU, SO YOU SEE STOP TALKING ABOUT IT IS HARD TO STAY CLEAN OR SOMEONE TRYING TO MAKE YOU USE DRUGS.
EVERY-TIME SOMEONE MAKE YOU THAT IS THE REASON WHY YOU HAVE TO USED, NO THAT IS NOT IT,IT IS BECAUSE YOU WANT TO USE. WHEN YOU DWELL ON WHY YOU WANT TO USE,IT IS BECAUSE IT IS ALREADY ON YOUR MIND TO USE, SO IF YOU STOP TALKING ABOUT WHY YOU WANT TO USE, INSTEAD TALK ABOUT HOW TO STOP USING IT WILL WORK FOR YOU BETTER.
SO STOP TALKING ABOUT USING!!!!!
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Focus of Life
It’s important to learn how to discipline your mind to change direction. |