by: Jayson C.

When I was deep into my addiction my wife, kids, family, didn’t matter. My disease was in control of my life. It wasn’t til my wife left me that I hit rock bottom, and decided to change my life.

You see she left but she didn’t let go. She was still there for me. Take a leap of faith if it’s meant to be it will be. If my wife didn’t leave me why stop? If it’s ok and I got away with it, why change. It meant the world to me that she never let go. I wish you the best.

If we do what we have always done we will get what we have always gotten!

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Thanks. Jayson C

I really appreciate your honestly, I do know in my heart that I am going to have to let him go. Is too stressful for me to carry. I cannot keep doing this to myself, especially when he is still lying about it.

I see all the signs. I also, know I will still try and be there for him as well. I just hope and pray he realize how serious cocaine is, and turn his life around.

by: sadie

This is Sadie again, I rather him just leave me.

by: Sadie

My boyfriend left the house at 1:00 o’clock Sunday Jan 1, 2012. Stayed out all night long. I heard from him about 8:30 this morning, I was at work.

He texted and said come and lock my door the key is on the table. I left work and he and his stuff was gone. I know this needed to happen, but I feel so hurt he did it this way. Why text and not call.

How do I get through this? The relationship was unhealthy, but was I really ready… no. Did I deserve a phone call instead of a text, I think so. I have always treated his very good despite, how bad he treated me.

I am heart broken, I am not letting go because I don’t love him, it’s because I need to. Please help. Did cocaine really do this?

by: Jayson C

Hey you, I believe that it is the drug. When I was deep in my addiction I wasn’t me. My drug was in control of my life. It told me what to do and where to go. This is a disease that we have and there is a cure.

But you can’t put the blame on you. He is a sick person with a disease that won’t be cured until he is ready.

Let go and Let God!!

by: Anonymous

I don’t know what to do. I’m away a lot for work. As far as I knew he was just snorting pills and sucking the patch. Then after much borrowing $ early in the morning I said get out.

Now he’s staying with a friend who shoots and I’m afraid he is going to do that too or has. It’s been three years of together/apart. But now he’s out and I am SO worried with no one keeping tabs on his drug use.

He stayed at my house while I was away and is back and forth at my house and his buddy’s. I found needles in my bathroom the other morning and was horrified. He said he found his buddy’s stash in the vent of my bathroom.

I knew he’d had his friend over when I was away- he SWEARS it’s not his- that he doesn’t do it. He dropped trou right there and showed me veins, arms, feet, legs and hands. But I don’t know what looking for!?

He was so upset that I thought it was his that he almost got sick. Then he threw his last morphine pill down the toilet and offered to quit drugs for me which I simply didn’t believe and thought was stupid.

He swears he’s not doing needles but I think he is. He’s gone from percs to patches… And now?? I love him dearly and really REALLY want to believe him- but. BUT.

If they belonged to his buddy who was over once WHY would he stash seething in my bathroom? I also went to the bathroom late one night and smelled something like sulphur? Yet there were no matches present.

I also found a little cap that is the lid for a nail treatment kit with a drop or two of water in it the same place I found the needles. It’s HEARTBREAKING- the idea of him doing something so severe. I swear I’m still in shock.

I kicked him out- and who comes to get him but the drug buddy. I took him back the next night- for a night but grilled him tirelessly on whether or not they were his etc. Etc.

I’m away on another trip and he’s back at his buddies. I know I should let him go. BUT. I do love him so so much. What to do??

by: Sadie

Thank you so much Jayson. I appreciate your comment he is gone, and I plan on letting him stay gone. It is too much for me to handle. I did let him come back after he left Jan 2, 2012.

Today is Jan 24, 2012, he left again Jan 20, 2012. I have not heard from him since. This time I am going to be strong and let him go. I must say I love him very much, and miss him a lot, but to be honest I was miserable, and in so much pain.

I took him back over and over again. I do know that he has no control over this drug. I guess when he realize that, maybe he will get some help. I pray that he does. Thank you again so much, you have really helped me. Thanks for being honest. I need that.