Help, don't know what to do or where to turn?
I am desperately seeking help ASAP. I have searched and been put on waiting lists for months now only to keep getting told that there is no help .. or you have to have money .. I recently spoke with a counselor for depression and was told that I am suffering severe PTSD from the trauma not just throughout my life but mostly in the past year.
I grew up in a very small town and am pretty much well known in the area ...and I was head cheer leader who came from a very dysfunctional family. My mother and father both left me at a very young age with my mother’s parents who were older and did the best they could to raise me. They both passed away in my arms a year apart.
I fought through the negative life that I was raised in and rose up above what most would have expected. I have 2 kids, a son who is 24 and a daughter who is 8. My kids are my world. All of my down hill slide came quickly a year ago. I owned my own business and was attacked leaving work one evening by 3 men. In fear I decided to close my business and move back to the town I was raised in searching for what I knew as a comfort. What I knew as “Home”.
Well in the past year since I moved back searching for comfort ... I only found complete distraught. I had pretty much lost my whole business, had friends stealing from me. My best friend was murdered by her husband and the man I was in love with who I also grew up with committed suicide ... all in this same year.
I sent my daughter to her father's to spend summer with him so I could regroup and within that time I started using drugs (Meth). And the downhill rapidly began. I had a brand new car that was totaled by a so called friend who borrowed it ... I lost my house, my savings, and everything I had in storage. My daughter's father now has decided to keep her so I no longer have her which has been the biggest heartache ever to me and kills my soul daily.
In 2 days I will pretty much be homeless because I can't get to work without a car. I have done all I can to stay afloat but it's come to an end I have reached out to so many begging for help ... and those same people that reached to me and I helped have turned their backs.
I have no family left but my kids and my son is giving up but still trying to keep me positive but from afar. Please, I am pleading to someone to help put me in a rehab where I can get help with drug use and depression. If I do not get help soon I do not know where I will be... I have nothing else to lose and I am pleading for my life for just someone to help me. I am screaming for help in anyway and get none ... It is the worst feeling in the world.
I do not want to go to a center here locally because everyone here knows me, but at this point I do not care I just need help and I'm really scared what will happen if I don’t get it soon. If I become homeless I am scared more trauma will push me over the edge ... I do not come from my room now and I stay in tears daily miserable ... Please someone help me ... Help Me for My kids !!!! I can not pay I have no money and no insurance …