I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel…
( Recovering Addict in Wisconsin)
It all began when I was 18 years old, I was young, naive and I thought I knew it all…
I was abused as a child and extremely sheltered so when I did turn 18 I was free from the hell I called my parents and I wanted to rebel…
I smoked pot first and instantly knew I loved it, I didn’t have to feel the emotional pain I had been feeling for so long!!!
It was only once in a while at first and then I could not be without it…
I was hanging out with people that used and drank because they liked me. For the first time in my whole life people liked me…
My parents didn’t even like me and these people did. I wasn’t going to let the fact that they did drugs stop me. My best friend Jenny and I started getting into harder drugs.
We started doing a lot ecstasy and cocaine. I started to try other things without any of my friends knowing…
By this point I had no idea where it would all lead me…
I did everything and anything I could get my hands on…
I was a garbage user by this point…
My friends did not know and I lied through my teeth to keep it to myself…
I had dissapeared from my home and family for about a year by this point and had no inclination to return…
A short time later my older sister found me and forced me to return home with her, she told me if I quit the drugs I could return home to her house and live with her…
I accepted the deal. I returned home and quit most drugs. I still smoked pot but hey it was just pot, right? I got a job thru my parents at the company they had worked for for 20 plus years and life was good…
Until I found OxyContin. I was just a casual oxy user at first and my home life was amazing. Eventually the Oxy use became worse and my life was ok, I was still working so I was a functional user.
Well little did I know I would get fired from my job after 5 years and leave my family once again, go to jail, and begin using heroin…
It got to the point where I didn’t want to live…
I was so addicted to opiates the withdrawls were horrible. The worse pain I have felt in my whole life. I attempted suicide. If I died well then I would be dead and if I lived I would go to rehab. I did not die so I entered myself into the Lawrence Center in Waukesha, Wisconsin with not a penny to my name. I had not spoken to my family at all in 6 months. I had warrants out for my arrest and I was in dire need for detox. I did 7 days inpatient and was referred to the 16 week opiate dependence group. I did it and this has been the best thing that has ever happened to me in my whole life…
I am 7 months sober, I have a sponser, I go to meetings, I am a secretary of one of my meetings and most of all I have my self respect and self worth back. I don’t steal or lie, I have my family back, and I have true friendships with people in the recovery community.
I never thought I could do it but with the help of my higher power and the Lawrence Center I did and so can you!!!!
I may not be through the tunnel but at least now I can see the light at the end of it!
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Wow!
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