I would like to share my experience, strength and hope with u. And especially with anyone suffering from the disease of addiction. I had a great life, wonderful family and a career. I began to have signs of trouble in my marriage, stress and migraines. I was prescribed various opiate medications and Demerol shots.
After several years I built a tolerance and began abusing the medication. Stadol Nasal spray came on the market. Literally a morphine derivative in a nasal spray. I used bottles of it each day. Eventually I began to inject it.
The disease took hold with a vengeance. I lost everything and became addicted to crack cocaine, meth, and heroin. My story is long so lets get to the good stuff. I finally entered treatment for the fifth time and surrendered. I went to a half-way house attended AA/NA meetings and got a sponsor. The 12 steps saved my life.
I was a hopeless drug addict who put life in danger over and over again. I have been clean several years thanks to God and the program. Give yourself a chance. Surrender, be willing to change and put in the same work that you put into your addiction.
It's a process one day at a time. You stay clean that way. Just for the day you're in. Please get help. Treatment, Methadone/Suboxone, medical detox, inpatient/outpatient treatment and plug into meetings. Pray. It will happen God Bless.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8