Prostituting Crackhead at 13 Years Old
I was 13 when I started my addiction. I was a pretty shy and quiet kid…my biological father was hard on drugs and didn’t want me and was very abusive.
My step dad was an IV user and an alcoholic, who was abusive mentally and physically. I was raped over 10 guys, which was how I lost my virginity so I started smoking weed and drinking at 13.
Soon after I began prostituting at 13 to support my habit, although I kept it a secret at school and continued to live a normal life.
I was always picked on for being “fat and ugly” and I never felt good enough. I started hanging out with the “druggies” and started experimenting with harder drugs by 14 including, ecstasy, acid, morphine, adavan, perks, oil, hash, cocaine, crystal meth, ECT.
By 15 I had met the love of my life. CRACK… I smoked it once, didn’t care for it, smoked it twice, whatever it was alright, smoked it a third time, and couldn’t stop. I’ve been smoking it every day ever since.
I had a loving family (although our problems), a great education, no legal troubles, a strong life ahead of me.
After getting harder into my crack addiction I dropped out of school, started working for an escort service at 15, lost my family, never had food in the house, on probation for the next 3 years, my eyes were dark and I lost a bunch of weight, and I also had to go to the hospital because of my constant crack smoking I was destroying my lungs and I could barely breath.
I went from the computer and phone being the most important things in the world to me, to me never answering my phone, never answering texts, locking my doors, shutting my blinds, I was a hermit in my own home.
I am now sitting in rehab getting my life together again. And I just turned 16 years old. That is not even half my story.
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You made the first step now keep going !!!!
You have a chance to get this sobriety at a young age that so many people like me have battled for years into our 30’s-40’s-50’s and so on. It took me a long time to finally submit my life to God and sobriety and trust me, my road has a lot of ugly memories like you have had. I am so happy to read about a younger adult trying to get their life together. You are gonna be able to help others that have had your similar situation and you can tell them, hey this is what I did. You have your whole life a head of you filled with promise. Remember that God looks at us all as beautiful children and so you need not let no one or anything bring you down or keep you from doing what you wanna do, which is to clean up your life and hopefully be a light to others in need someday. This life of sobriety is filled with so many great blessings as opposed to living in the misery of addiction. So I wanna just let you know that I’m pulling for you all the way from cincinnati, ohio. One day at a time and God will take you to great places. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding…. |
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God Be With You
As you work through your treatment and go into recovery, always know that God is with you. He loves you dearly. At 16 you have a life ahead of you, and opportunities await you. You can leave behind the tatters of a ruined childhood, and with the love and protection of God, move forward to becoming an amazing, strong and productive woman. My prayers are with you. |