Reaching Denial

by Megan
(United Kingdom)

I have never taken drugs, I never would do but there is reason for that.

In 2013 I fell in love with someone who had battled with depression and drug abuse for a long long time. When I say drug abuse, he was using what we call 'street drugs' ie. dupe versions, if you like, of 'high end' more expensive drugs. These 'street drugs' are easy to come by and cheap.

I want to share this story because for so long I have lied to everyone about the reason our relationship broke down out of embarrassment and pure shame that effectively I probably aided him and his addiction.

But also to let other people know that you can be strong, you don't have to sit back and be a part of someone's life style if it's ruining your own.

I'm not going to go into detail about everything that happened but there was times where he'd take such an excessive amount of a drug he'd wet himself, have fits and I was left to cover for him and get help while his friends laughed.

He would physically and mentally abuse me, in forms of black mailing and pushing and also steal money from me to fund his habit. He would make me lie to his parents and tell me that if I didn't they would send him away to rehab and I wouldn't be able to see him, another form of blackmail.

I want to tell people out there that you cannot change people if they're not willing to change themselves. But don't ever blame yourself, you could be Megan Fox or George Clooney and no matter how much that person loves you and cares for you, the first step to recovering has got to be from them.

Of course there are things you can do such as not leaving money around or taking them to appointments and making sure they actually attend them, but ultimately if someone wants to stay living a drug fueled life style, they will find a way.

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or they'll find an excuse !!
by: Bethany Johnson

Wow, that's a crazy story. I'm honestly sorry you went through all that, especially that you don't or did drug. I kinda went through something like that the only difference is, I was using drugs at the time. Congrats, for getting out of that horrible relationship && my advice is never do drugs !! They're honestly not worth it.

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