After heroin I dispersed Subutex for 10 years.....
I couldn't get clean without some help. When prostitution, theft, credit card fraud became my norm, the private school educated girl knew rehab wasn't enough. Maybe methadone or Subutex could hold me. Because at that stage I'd resigned myself to the fact hat I would use til I die. I would find the money no matter the fact I'd ruined everyone including myself. So I got on the withdrawal program.
I'm not writing this to highlight my debauched, vile lifestyle while I was using heroin, I'm writing this to warn others using about this story as I am dying.
I decided shooting up Subutex was such a great idea. It's cheap. I seem straight I owned a successful business that I started using the funds my father left me when he died.
Where is the problem here?????
10 years after I first injected bupe so I wouldn't fall off the proverbial cart. I found out my kidneys are dying. They have a disease which makes them dense and dead. From years of flushing bupe, and all its made up of, through my system I have various symptoms.
It's not just the kidneys. My teeth. Although not a cavity as I'm a stickler for dental hygiene. My body is rejecting them. They are loose!!! I have to have all the glamorous teeth removed as my white blood cells instead of attacking the bacteria I inject every day, they're attacking my teeth!!!
So I have 5 years before my son is without his mother. I'm only 42. I haven't used heroin for 10 years and still the addiction got me.
If u r thinking shooting bupe is a great idea...... Please don't.
My chemo starts in a few months yes after I have all my beautiful teeth removed. My hair will fallout and ultimately I'll look worse than any junkie I every knew...
I hope I have saved just one person. I know they prescribe Suboxone to stop people doing what I did but for the ones who don't look like they'd do that and for the ones who would....,
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