I can't take it any longer...

by Jerry
(Tulsa, Oklahoma )

I have been an addict for over half my life. I'm on my fourth marriage. Been married for 17 years. I've tried to get clean, but it's really hard when I have no positive support.

I get verbally and sometimes physically abused and told I don't love or care about my kids or my wife. I've given my life for them and make damn sure they never do without. I've always took care of all the bills wants and needs for my family.

My wife doesn't use, sometimes I wish she would smoke a joint and chill out. I just can't take it no more. I'm on the verge of suicide... Lord please give me the strength to keep going...

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Very sorry you're feeling so desperate!
by: Debbie Wicker

Dear Jerry,

We all need positive support in our lives to get through the difficult situations that we experience. It sounds like you don't have enough positive support and you have way too much negativity in your life currently.

Please consider trying to find good counseling support in your area. Often churches have men who can act as mentors and walk beside you during this extremely difficult and heart-breaking time.

Please consider joining a Celebrate Recovery (CR) group in your area. Celebrate Recovery is a support group that will walk along side you and help you navigate the difficult choices you need to make.

Often churches that have CR also have a counseling or mentoring programs to help you to increase the positive support you're receiving. Thoughts of suicide are often a significant indicator that you're not receiving enough emotional and psychological support.

Here is a list of CR meetings in your area:



1. Asbury United Methodist Church
6767 S. Mingo Road, Tulsa, OK 74133
918-492-1771
Glen Grusendorf
http://www.asburytulsa.org/AdultMinistries/CelebrateRecovery2.aspx
Monday 6:00-9:30pm, Dinner, Large Group, Small Groups, Dessert Time, Childcare Available

2. Believers Church
4705 S. Memorial, Tulsa, OK 74145
918-495-2929
Jim & Pam Wykoff
http://www.bctulsa.com
Tuesday 6:00-9:30 pm, Dinner, Large Group, Small Groups, Cafe Celebration, Childcare Available

3. Christ United Methodist Church
3513 S. Harvard, Tulsa, OK 74136
918-747-8601
Jim Stilwell
http://www.cumctulsa.com
Thursdays 6:00pm-9:30pm
Dinner, Large Group, Open Share, Victory Cafe, Childcare Available

4. Evangelistic Temple
5345 South Peoria Avenue, Tulsa, OK 74105
918-749-9971
Jeanne & Preston Anson
http://www.ettulsa.org
Sunday 5:00-9:00pm, Dinner, Large Group, Small Group, Coffee Shop, Childcare Available

5. First United Methodist Church of Tulsa
1115 S. Boulder Ave., Tulsa, OK 74119
918-832-1379
Gary Pond
http://www.fumctulsacr.org
Tuesday 6:00-9:30pm, Dinner, Large Group, Small Groups, One Day @ a time Coffee Shop, childcare-6 weeks-3yrs, Celebration Station-4yrs-5th grade, the Landing-6th-12th grade

6. God’s Shining Light
9897 East 11th St. South, Tulsa, OK 74128
918-836-7788
Davy Dyer
http://www.gslchurch.com
Wednesday 6:00-9:30pm, Dinner, Large Group, Small Group, Coffee Shop, Childcare Available

7. Greenwood Christian Center
1519 West Pine Street, Tulsa, OK 74127
918-582-3580
Debbie McIntosh
Thursdays 6:00pm-9:30pm
Dinner, Large Group, Open Share Groups, Kingdom Cafe, Childcare Available

8. Highland Park Christian Church
5708 East 31st Street, Tulsa, OK 74135
918-627-0783
Ron & Halee Wood
Thursday 6:00-9:30pm, Dinner, Large Group, Small Group, Cafe, Childcare Available

9. Park Plaza Church of Christ
5925 E. 51st Street, Tulsa, OK 74135
918-814-4302
Ryan & Stephanie Pope
http://www.parkplaza.org
Friday 6:00-9:30pm, Dinner, Large Group, Small Group, Coffee Shop, Childcare-6 weeks-3yrs, Celebration Station-4yrs-5th grade, the Landing-6th-12th grade

10. Southern Hills Baptist
5590 South Lewis, Tulsa, OK 74105
918-743-8897
Steve & Norma Murphy
http://www.celebraterecovery-shbc.org
Friday 6:00-10:00pm, Dinner, Large Group, Small Groups, Cafe Recovery, Childcare 6wks-3yrs;Celebration Station K-5th grade; The Landing 6th-12th grade. All on Friday night during CR.

11. The Link Church
6365 East 41st Street, Tulsa, OK 74135
918-381-6079
Tish Fuller
http://www.thelinkchurch.tv
Sundays 6:30pm-8:30pm
6:30pm Large Group
7:30pm Open Share Group
Childcare provided

12. Victory Christian Center
7700 South Lewis Avenue, Tulsa, OK 74136
918-491-7700
George Peterson
http://www.victory.com
Mondays 7:00pm-9:30pm
7:00pm Large Group
8:00pm Open Share Group
9:00pm Cafe Recovery
No Childcare at the time


Please find a couple of these churches and start going to CR, hopefully you'll begin to feel better once you connect with others who have been where you're at right now.

God is with you and wants to help you to get the support you need!

May God bless you and your family,

Debbie

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