Living and breathing are a pain in this present darkness

by Thomas
(Dallas, TX )

I will try to be brief, apologies a forehand: Growing up I was, or it seemed, to be out to prove everyone that I am capable of doing this or that, making the grades, football team, getting into college, and ultimately n being a worthwhile citizen. They were all fights against nay-sayers, and I enjoyed proving that I was able, however, not without great sacrifice.

Struggling with ADHD THROUGHOUT unmediated, in college I saw that I have an issue and needed help, DOC RX'S ADDERAL and the courses leveled, and then for multiple external events coinciding with my internal being I became severely depressed.

So, now being treated with 2 pharmaceuticals, I thought it would be done on the self help train until social anxiety popped up and not longer insomnia; to date still in treatment for these, and I am growing faithless in the combination of treatments, mind you this is the cocktail of 10+years in the making by a very extraordinary doc, I am truly committed to achieving a balance.

Yet, remember when this was not even an afterthought-I recall the last time I was of any benefit to anyone, and it was a simple time when I held down a job and I felt like I was really myself, yet this time I speak of I was consuming marijuana on a regular basis.

I wonder if the person that is writing this, as hollow and worthless as it is in my mind body and spirit, wouldn't be better off with the marijuana vs. all the C2,3,4 Rx's- stuck in my own prison

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Muliple medications can cause more harm than good.
by: Debbie Wicker

Dear Thomas,

So little is known about the effects of psychotropic medications that I think you're asking a good question. I would rephrase the question this way:

How many of your issues are being caused be the mix of medications you're taking and if you (with the support of a doctor) weaned yourself of them would you begin to feel more like yourself?

I work at a free clinic and deal with many patients that are on 20 to 30 different medications. They have so many side effects it's often difficult to tell if they are really receiving any benefits from their pills.

One patient recently (with the support of the doctors) weaned himself of all but a few medications and he was a new person. His memory improved, his depression cleared up and he was no longer so dizzy and he was able to walk normally.

This is only an anecdotal example but it is something you may want to consider? Marijuana is so little studied compared with other prescribed medications that it's hard to say whether it has any therapeutic benefits or not.

Continuing to try to find the correct mix of medications and counseling to help you become the person you want to be is certainly worth the effort.

Good luck in your journey,


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