Hi my name is Kayla and i was addicted to pills. When i got with my ex boyfriend i started doing drugs. I did anything i could get my hands on like crack, coke and even heroin too.
But my main thing was pills. I have been diagnosed bipolar and wasn't taking my meds like I'm suppose to, so I dealt with manic depression.
For me snorting pills and getting high was my medicine. When i was high i didn't feel pain. I didn't feel anything. To be high was such a great feeling. To be in your own little world where you can be free from all stress and sadness. You could just sit there and enjoy your buzz and not think about all the bullshit around u. It takes you out of reality and basically puts your mind in a coma.
That was a feeling i loved too much to walk away from. I continued my addiction for 11 months before i finally hit rock bottom. One day it just hit me out of nowhere. I broke down and cried to my family and told them everything that had been going on.
I guess you could say reality finally sank in. I realized that wasn't the life i wanted anymore. I knew i had a problem and I needed to get help the right way, not by doing drugs. I realized that the only reason why i was doing them was to keep the pain away. But it only relieved the pain for so long. It would ware off and i would want more.
Well drugs are not the answer it is not the solution for anyone's problems. I am so happy that i have gotten clean and i'm getting my life back on straight.
I thank God every day for letting me hit rock bottom and realizing i needed to change my life for the better. I don't know why i realized it when i did but I'm glad i did. Maybe that was God's way of saving me so i wouldn't be dead and gone.
There was so many times where i almost overdosed and could have easily died. I could have got a bad batch or something and i wouldn't be here. So I'm very thankful I'm here today and i can share my story with others.
My advice for anyone out there that relates to this would be: Stay true to yourself and never give up. I didn't think i was strong enough to stay clean and I'm doing it. You CAN do this. It's an every day battle but surround yourself with positive influences and the people that love and support you and you can do this.
You only have one life to live. Everyone makes mistakes but you can grow and learn from them. Choose to do so and your life will change forever. You will be so much happier when you choose the sober life. Makes you a stronger person in the end. Good luck to everyone out there and thank you for reading my story!
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