my son went into rehab 18 months ago for heroin addiction for 6 months but immediately came out and started doing drugs, he has struggled for 10 years with addiction(not heroin all that time) and is permanently depressed, last 6 months or more??
is addicted to crack cocaine he is now paranoid, wont leave his rented house, always angry wont answer my calls, in the past i have paid his rent,taken shopping, both cried, argued every emotion but now I’m at a total loss as i wont pay rent anymore (so the fear i have been dreading is he will be on the streets) or go to the house begging to be let in i am so tired of the same things and no changes i feel i dont want to know anymore(what sort of mum am i to think that) which adds to my depression!!
i am at a total loss and so scared, he wont go back to 12 step program/rehab/doctors/or any help program, ive read everything about crack addiction,spoke to helplines but im totally lost..
i dont know why i am writing this because i want someone to tell me the answer which i know is impossible, the helplessness is overwhelming.