(St. Louis, Missouri)
Alcohol Addiction Stories: I started drinking innocently in college. It was everywhere,
and the "in" thing to do. I noticed the buzz it gave me and added to my
self esteem. -- Through the years my drinking escalated. I'd say I
realized I had a problem in my late 20's, but just continued to drink.
I still have self esteem issues, and drink heavily--not every day. I can easily down 2 bottles of wine. I hate that I have to have it to feel better about myself, but the hang-over's and depression that are created from alcohol are horrible side effects. I envy people that are just social drinkers. They can enjoy 2 or 3 drinks then stop. I wished I enjoyed life without alcohol.
I have never gotten treatment, but one of my doctors who I see for depression thinks I drink to "self medicate." He's right.
Any advice is appreciated. -- I work full time, and I'm now 56 years old.
Thank you for sharing your story. I can definitely relate with you. I started drinking when I was 16 and drank until I was 28. At first it was with friends, partying or going to a bar. I ALWAYS got drunk when I drank. Over the 12 years it just kept getting worse. Eventually I drank EVERY night by myself and occasionally with friends.
I wanted to quit when I was 28 because I had a son (I didn't drink while I was pregnant). I tried but kept going back to it, although I didn't get drunk every night - just drank some. It had become an addiction. I went to my medical doctor and he was great. One of my biggest fears was not being able to sleep if I didn't drink at night. He gave me a non-addictive medicine to help me sleep and told me to go to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. I did go and I also got a drug and alcohol counselor. Now I haven't drank for 25 years.
Now I go mostly to Al-anon meetings (for friends and families of alcoholics and drug addicts). That is because my son has been having trouble with substance abuse.
Both meetings helped immensely because I realized I was not alone with these two problems. Also, it is great to talk freely and hear others be so open.
I greatly advise that you go to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting and perhaps talk some more to your medical doctor. Also, you could get a drug and alcohol counselor and talk to a clergy. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Please get some support. I will pray for you-Lynette
Your an amazing person!
I believe you do not need something to self medicate take life one day at a time breath in the fresh air and try to relax.
Alcohol addiction stories: Learning to give back
As a child I started drinking at the age and nine, because my home
environment was killing me emotionally. Soon I started to hang out in
the streets more and not having a father I looked up to negative role
models in the streets. This conditioned me to have two behaviors one
for the home, the other for the streets.
I began hanging around pimps and hustlers, I know now that they are both the same. At one time I could say I was a victim of my environment but today I know I'm a predator of my environment.
At one time people feed off my innocence. Embracing that pain I learned to feed off of other people's innocence. This is no joke I hurt people because people hurt me.
Today I'm sorry for that behavior I displayed in my past. I have 11 years of recovery, and yet one of the things I try to do is to see things from the street environment and warning my young people about it.
For three days I have been looking at YouTube and I see young ladies trying to do things that I know they have no understanding about. This is a gateway into drugs and prostitution aids and death. You have people selling this ideal to young ladies so that they can make fast money. That is a pimp line, the young ladies have no ideal of what a stripper's life is like.
If they understood that in this country little boys and girls are being sold into the sex industry, they couldn't take pride in such risky behavior.
I have to ask myself when I see some of the people on YouTube: Are they being forced to disgraced themselves like this, are they on drugs. Do they not know about aids and how it's linked to risky behavior. At one time in my life this would be entertainment, today it's sad. I guess that's recovery, I pray that the world gets as I have received.
Learning to give back
CONGRATULATIONS on being clean 11 years. Thank you for sharing your story. It is such a reminder of what drugs can do to your life. I am so glad that you have turned your life around and are now helping others.
I will pray for you-Lynette