My boyfriend of nearly 2 years has a addiction to meth. We met thru our kids. His son and my daughter. I was separated and he just broke up with girlfriend. We were best friends before taking our feelings to the next level.
We now have a grand-baby from our children. I went through a lot with him over a year ago as his best friend. Jail, rehabilitation program and his friends.
Last November he started hanging with some old friends. His behavior changed and he kicked me out just after Christmas because he wanted to investigate his feelings for this girl he had met. I told him she was bad news. A walking violation of his probation. They started hanging out with old crowd.. It just got worse.
I continued to live with him at his request because I lost my job and I was still his friend. His girlfriend got assault charges on her again and went to jail. She got out March 11th and comes to house. He and I proceeded to argue and pushed me taking my phone and removing the battery. He is now in jail. Assault Charges..
I now get a letter and he says he is sorry for allowing her and the meth to come between us. He loves me and wants his family back. He lost faith in me getting a divorce (which is final at the end of May).. He caps me yesterday and tells me he has a no contact order on her and I win. She is out of his life... Our life. He wants to work on us...
But in the same sentence he wants her on his sober buddy list. And his failed drug test was a fact of a one time oops but she wasn't available to talk to.. . She no more a sober buddy than a saint with horns filling his meth pipe.
I tried it on several occasions to be part if his life but not what I want in my life. I realize now he just wants a get out of jail free card since I holding his life in my hand. We go to court Monday 7th..
I have never felt so alone and scared. I'm not only a fool to believe he loved me but he wants me to lie for him to keep him from going to prison. I know all to well he will find away around the order if he gets out. His friends are being raided and busted and I am getting the full blame. He doesn't want me or his family... He wants out of jail.
I haven't slept well in two days since his phone call. I have appointment to visit him tomorrow to tell him in person I not his puppet and not going to lie to court for her or him. He also has to face charges of association with her (she on record felon and misdemeanor charges).. Drug test failures and other probation violations. Either way he not getting out anytime soon.
I want to help him. He hoping to go back to rehab... Thinks he going to sweet talk the judge into believing it a one time bad weekend use.. I trust the judge knows he lying.. I lost.. And am torn apart in how to help.. Should I help.. And is it worth it..
Do you have pamphlets you can send me? I need to find my strength to deal with this.. I thought I could do this alone.. Know now I can't..
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." - Matthew 7:7-8